Tell me why

You know that what you're doing well make him mad. Yet you do it anyway. 

You know we're having difficulties with money. Yet you spend it like it's nothing, and complain about not having money to chip in for the house rent.

That's the reason why I'm job hunting. So I can help with the bills and rent.  I'm not looking fora job to earn money to spend on myself.  Other girls my age are shopping and hanging out, but I hesitate to join them because I don't want to use money that can be used to help pay bills.

Why can't Ispend my days without  worrying about being kicked out because we can't pay the rent.  Unlike you, he can't work, but he still manages to chip in more for the rent than you do.  We do love you. We love you alot. I can't imagine living with one of you guys missing.  But he's been putting up with you gambling addiction for more than 10 years.  There will be a day where he explodes and everything crashes.

Why do you do this to us.

Xoxo

Mrs Beamish invited us to dinner at the primavera cafe. It was nice chatting about things other than esc, well maybe not about the part about ingrown toenails. Sandy, Tram and I got her a new solar system DVD, a star projecter and this magic garden thing. 

We ordered food, they were all in 18-35 dollar range. I wanted a kids meal ); ice creaaaam. Me and Erin thought the food was pretty expensive but when the food came out omg the portions were huge. I had to eat my burger by layers using a knife and fork cause I couldn't bite it ); (no photos. Cause I wanted to eat it and forgot about photos)

Finished food and sat there just chatting. Took photos. Said our goodbyes and mrs beamish told us to text her from time to time so she could see how we were going with our life. And yea. She payed for the meals. Made us all feel bad. 

It was a nice and chilling night. Thanks Mrs Beamish !!!

And also when Sandys dad came to pick us up. Me and sandy hugged Erin because she was the only one left. Well there was still mrs beamish and Clark and holly but they were all in a circle talking to each other while Erin was well, sitting outside of the circle. Sandys dad beeped at Erin and waved and me and sandy were the wtf. Turns out, Sandys  dad thought Erin was the teacher.... 

LOL 

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feelings come and go

I'm going to start blogging again. Maybe not everyday. But sometimes. When I have something to post about. Or when I just want to let everything out to a blog. Even if no one reads it. I would like to go back and read it sometime in the future. 

JUST GRADUATED. CLASS OF 2013 hehe

But I'm quite sad that there won't be anymore little group discussions about the weirdest things at lunch anymore. And those people that I may not see outside of school anymore. I wish you guys luck for the future!  

* I will also be most likely posting from my phone. So it won't be colorful );

Nightmare

I AM BACK. I don't know where I went but... :D

This was made ages ago.AGES ago LOL but I only saved it as a draft

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So I haven't had an nightmare in ages, but after I moved houses I had one about having a killer living next door, he was an old asian man, and coincidence or not...there's one living next door.

So it started when I was preparing my 16th birthday party (which has pasted already thank god .. paranoid LOL)

• I heard my next door neighbours screaming at each other, so I stepped outside to see (being the nosy kid I am) I saw the old couple next door fighting and suddenly the husband grabbed the wife and tackled her to the ground and began to slit her throat open, along with her face. I was terrified and went inside and told my dad to install extra locks.
• Even though that happened, I called Nancy over to help me prepare everything for my party the next day, as she walked into my driveway, the old man came out of his house dragging a bloody bag towards his garage. Nancy screamed and legged it out into the streets and the man ran after her, caught her, dragged her back to his house. Again, I dont know why but I stepped outside "attempting" to save her (I actually hid behind a bush or something), watched her die and ran back into my house.
• again even though that happened I called Nhung over to help me, she came and I told her not to go outside or talk to any one outside, so we were baking cupcakes and then (I swear what I told her came in one ear and out the other) she picked up two cupcakes and went outside and saw the old man watering his garden with...blood. she was like "HEY OMG YOU LOOK LIKE A NICE MAN, WOULD YOU LIKE SOME CUPCAKES?" he gave her a creepy smile and said yes, then all of a sudden the cupcakes transformed and there was "You murderer" on the cupcakes, each letter on one cupcake.  He thought she knew so he killed her
• I then called sandy over -facepalm- and warned her, and she was a good girl so she listened to me. 
• then it skipped to the next scene where I went outside to greet everyone, and we played games and other stuff. I heard a noise in the laundry room and went down to take a look, the man was inside and he just stared and grinned at me..ran  for my life and called the police. The police came but just stood there yelling at him.
• Lily decided to go greet him, he grabbed lily and threatened to kill her as he held a knife against her neck, she was screaming. My dad dropped a fridge on them (I don't know how...) and the man like, slid out from underneath while lily was like..a squashed fly
• He started running around slashing everyone, there was this point where he stabbed Lisa and lilmichelle was crying and screaming 'DON'T DIE ON ME MOLE'
• and yea..there was like an ocean of blood.. only me, lilmichelle and Mi survived.
• we just partied after everything magically dissapears

Weird as dream right ? (The whole group died) LOOL

gooodbyyyeee :)